i_was_beauty

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I sit,
staring at the cold blank linoleum
jaundicned and grey from the bleak light that filters in
my barefeet feel marble-like and frozen.
A half empty coffee cup sits across from me
a perfect lip print is kissed upon the rim
a world full of broken promises
lay between me and that cup
and I wonder if I can ever find my way back,
Can you forgive my transgressions against your love?
If I can forgive your missteps?
I stare expectantly at your coffee cup,
awaiting your return,
knowing that nothing ever really changes
and in the end I will remain a statue
too scared to heal
and too stubborn to leave.

schelley

...my dolls lay upon their faces and sides
Ashamed that I have lost the dream.
...my tricycle has worn its tread away
Putting miles of distance between us.

..my teddy bear still greets me with open arms
Reflecting what I was, am, and will be within his big, round eyes.

schelley

fearing nothing

independent woman

social butterfly

assertive and strong

the looking glass

nameless_me

"For Her"

Water flowing down the mountain;
while her tears do flow like a fountain,
bitterly she weeps,
and quietly she sleeps.
Sleeps through the nights tide,
till her fears do subside.

Lighting flashing across the sky;
while her rage she keeps inside,
angrily she mumbles,
and innocently she stumbles.
Stumbles through the dark,
to the sound of the meadowlark.

Leaves falling from the trees;
while her pain no one sees,
silently she sighs,
and finally she dies.
Dies all alone in the night,
because she is tired of the fight.

-Nameless_Me

nameless_me

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drained

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"Beauty"

The serene beauty of the sunrise

lasts only until it is noticed;

and the tranquility of dusk

is shattered upon its acknowledgement.

There in lays beautys true Paradox

for upon recognition it turns ordinary;

while the unseen is where beauty doth lay.

Thus the purest of beauty,

does reside in our hearts and souls,

and not the shell in which we keep it.

-Nameless_Me

nameless_me

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very very tired

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"Mr Preacher Man"

I'm falling apart a little at a time;
lifes a mountain I'm to tired to climb.
What good is a dream that never comes True?
What good is hope if it's not meant for you?
Shackled by the past, bound for hell;
there is much of the story I'll never tell.
In the end death will be my only release;
then maybe all of this turmoil will cease.
I just want all of the pain to end;
I know the reaper will be a true friend.
I'm sick and tired of being alone,
hopefully eternity will be a good home.
I want to die there is no doubt,
I want to die cause it's my only way out.
Can you save my soul mr preacher man?
Can you really show me a better plan?
You don't get it, and you never will,
'cause you'll never understand how I feel.
I hate waking up day after day,
seeing all of the happy people at play.
Mr preacher man say a prayer for me,
Tell your god to grant me eternity.

-Nameless_Me

nameless_me

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depressed

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"Weeping Willow"

Meloncholy willow sitting all alone;
but why it cries I do not know.
Perhaps it cries for days gone by,
that are as dark as the midnight sky.
Tormenting its soul, driving it insane,
while its unseen tears fall like rain.
All it knows is the desire to die;
and the longing for the day its soul will fly,
fly away to a place where calm waters flow.
Hoping to find a place its happiness can grow.

-Nameless_Me

greyxpassion

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mood

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tired

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(Long ago written.. Son to Father, tragic.)

Slowly whispered word echoes in my head
I feel the area around me has changed, kind of dead
Last thing I want to do now is carrying on practise smiling
Memories of him return, inside I’m whining
When, tell me, when,
Will I be home again?

My memories, they concern me and you
In my darkest hours I wish again they’d be true
So often I long to be around you when daybreak begins
Then not just my memories have fade away, even my sins
I still don’t dare to cry
Let me be again with you, flying high

My tears melt with the warm breeze
Every single teardrop makes my heart freeze
The pain of the memories gnaw at my mind
I was so sure, I had left them behind
Being alone here, in a tears sea
Makes me hope he would see me

I begin to sleep, with a single tear on my face
Can’t wait counting the days
When I will see you again, when we will be together
Till then I will keep you in my heart, forever
And again I dream of being right beside you
And see myself, what I can not do

I say ‘I love you, Dad’, see what we could be
And the warmth I felt once, is coming back to me
Now I don’t need the memories anymore
It is your love to me I adore
Your love to me I still need, I feel it inside
And the dark nights have stars now, so bright

Everything is only a lie, a big one
My fate, it unfortunately has to be done
There is no way out of my feeling
I can’t wait for a tomorrow and not for a healing
But inside me I still wait for you, coming here and taking me away
To a place, where both of us can stay

greyxpassion

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happy

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(My first entry and I'm excited somewhow. I'll write something I just now wrote. Hope I'll get critique or flashback. Would be grateful.)

In every instant I want to hold you
I think of 'Us' as pure and true
In my core my feelings are caught
I ignored every single thought
Of that we could be parted, all along
Just everything of this seems to me wrong

So,
Just let me hold you tight and I'll let you feel
That we just have to be real